Hello again, I write far too many of these posts, apologising for not blogging or being present online. But, to be honest, should I or anyone else for that matter feel guilty? Long story short a lot has happened in my personal life recently and I guess it’s just sent me over the edge.
SOMETIMES WE JUST NEED A BREAK
Trying to still attend university, do my university work, complete my qualification in Japanese and still work my part time job, trying to blog as well would just be too much. I would never want to do it because I had to, I write because I want to. Trying to juggle everything despite turbulent times has meant I’ve either felt overly anxious or numb, meaning I haven’t been able to enjoy doing anything for a few weeks. But, here I am writing this post now, why? I guess you could say I’ve got my mojo back. Yes, everything is still a pile of rubbish and I have no idea what’s coming in regards to my personal life, yes my university work is quickly piling up and yes my physical health has certainly caught up with me. But, finally I feel more like my usual self, I’m ready to blog, enjoy what I can enjoy and carry on with all my hobbies. Also, I’m at that stage where I am no longer a walking pity party and am content with what I have despite what’s going on. But to get to this stage? I needed a break, focussing on the essential parts of my life was far more important than trying to do everything.
COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS
I’m so grateful for my university, to study something I adore with fantastic support. I’m so grateful that I have the ability to work, although I’m not physically the fittest it’s great I’m able to earn lots of money and fund myself through university and travel the world. I’m also grateful to have the ability to travel a lot, both physically and mentally. I’m grateful for some of those close to me, my boyfriend, a couple of friends and my sister are just fabulous. I’m also just grateful to be happy, years ago I remember wishing away my life at Sixth Form as I was so unmotivated and unpassionate there, but now even though I’m looking to work in Japan in the future, I am still very much content with my life at the present. Japan will be an adventure and my dream, but my life is as happy as it can be right now.
“IT’S OKAY NOT TO BE OKAY”
When life throws rubbish at you, it is 100% okay to not be okay (as Charlotte said in her blog post right here). Whatever your circumstances, whether people have it ‘worse’ or ‘better’ than you, everyone is entitled to be human and cope in the way they wish. However, it is also so important to try and pick yourself up and remember what wonderful things you have in life. You’re entitled to feel however you wish, but remaining aware of your blessings will only aid you. You will get through whatever is bothering you, and ultimately for life to have it’s ‘up’s it must have some ‘downs’. You will be okay <3
Again apologies for the mini-hiatus, and this personal blog post which is a little out of the ordinary. My travel posts will be back within the next week for those wondering. For those of you who did enjoy a read of this, or for those of you struggling through a tough time, I hope this helped in some way <3